Guilty of surviving

“I have no idea why I have survived HIV/AIDS for 23 years and counting.

I have no idea why so many others have not been as fortunate, people like the souls sitting next to me in the doctor’s office 23 years ago, 20 years ago, 15 years ago, 10 years ago, 5 years ago, last month.

We were all in the same foxhole in the same war, which isn’t even over. The men and women seeking medical treatment in the 1980s and 90s were in the same trenches as me. We were all under siege from both a virus that was killing us and a world that feared us.”